I love the life I have been given. I am very blessed and I now know the Lord is always with me! I had an orderal a few months back (October 6th 2008 to be exact) and although I now have a new heart condition to live with for the rest of my time here (by no fault of mine) , I am here. I am here to love and be loved. I am here to see and be seen. I am here to live and to be present! So that's what I do. That's what I am doing. I am here and enjoying all of it! I plan to be here as long has the Lord wants me to be and I plan to live it up! There are no more tears for this. It is what it is. It's a part of me, a part of who I am and will forever be. I will make this heart beat for as long as it is strong enough, but I have already warned it to be ready because I love hard and long and have no plans to change that so it will need to keep up with me not the other way around!